The Demons Nightmare (Descriptive)

 The Demons Nightmare - by Nur Syazlianah

My body was covered with sticky sweat that was dripping down my forehead . I woke up from a deep sleep. I swear that was the worst nightmare that I ever had. I said “That was the biggest fear in every mother’s life”. My divorce and custody battle was a nightmare. I’m thankful enough and was hoping this will never happen in my real life although this social inequality has happened many times from what I saw.

After nine months of waiting patiently, my pure and clean son was finally born. It was a slightly touchy and pleasant moment for me who gives birth. All the pain endured disappears when I stroke the soft of the baby's head and hear the beauty of the baby's crying. From that time, I promised to sacrifice life and property for the happiness of my son who is the greatest and priceless gift in my life.Unfortunately the beautiful and happy moment didn't last long.

 

We got divorced and my husband demanded for child custody. My feelings at that time were very mixed. My heart was broken when I found out I was divorced and even more sad when the child custody was also taken away by my ex-husband. I feel furious because I’m the one who struggles to give birth and watched every moment of my little boy growing up. In addition, the age of my child who is not yet able to be close with people around other than their own mothers makes me feel more sorrowful.

On a calm and bright day, a court decision was made by a responsible lawyer that states the child custody wins to the father as expected. It's so unfair, just because my ex-husband works and has a steady income is the strongest reason for him to get child custody. It’s an inequality for all moms out there who lost their custody right just like me. I felt suppressed. Custody should not be taken away. Children need their mothers more than their fathers.  I was sad to see and hear my son crying to follow me on my way out of the court.

Although various continuous efforts have been made in the custody battle, I still lost. My energetic and enthusiastic energy has reached its limits, I decided to stop trying and just watch my own son's growth from afar and always give endless support in everything he does. I realize that this is the most unwanted moment for every child, which is growing without a mother by their side, but I’m at my lowest. I can't do anything to get my own child. To conclude, child custody should be given to the mother no matter what happens.