Rooftop memories (Narrative Essay)

            The more I grow up, the more I understand the pain of missing someone that has gone from this cruel world. My world started to shine whenever he came into my life, saving me from the black shadow that covered my body. Time flies but I know he was miles away from me, the darkest and worst place that I don’t even know where it is. Every day I pray for him and I’m very grateful because God lend me a good guy even for a while. He’s a very patient, caring and understanding guy that is willing to take care of me, and lend me his ears and shoulders to cry on whenever I feel like I wanna end my breath in one second. 
 “Stay alive for me”. 

His last message keeps running in my mind whenever I feel like I wanna give up in my life. 

It began when my mom sacrificed her one and only life just to give birth to a pair of handsome twins that don't value anything to me. I tried to love them but they are the causes of why my life turned dark and there’s no hope for me to win my parents’ heart anymore. They always spent time with them instead of me. Usually my room is full of laughter then suddenly becomes quiet as no one lives here, everything changes in just a blink of an eye. My life was miserable and every single day I needed to fight the demons in my head.

 I started to skip classes and smoke at my favorite place which is a rooftop near my tuition class. How lucky am I to be saved by him on that day because I forgot to eat. He was also being neglected by his parents so no wonder he looked sad every time he came to the rooftop. We cherish each other and laugh so hard with our own jokes. One day, my parents decided to move. He smiles but I know deep down he is sorrowful. One week after, my heart shattered into pieces as soon as I received a message from his family that he commit suicide. 

I regret my action but I know life must go on. His kindness is invaluable and our sweet and bitter memories are always in my mind. One day, I will not treat my children the same way my parents did. I will create my house as a comfort place for my family and spoil them with happiness.